Tuesday, January 20, 2009

I always want what I can't have...

The title says it all. I want something I can't have. I look for something and when I think I have found it, it slips through my fingers. Its hard to accept when you love someone and you are lead to believe they want what you want but they don't. They find someone else. Why do people give up a chance of a lifetime for something that looks good at the moment? For Valentine's day I got this someone the seat cover to the backseat, I was going to surprise this person with tickets to Monster Jam for this weekend, and to go along with the seat covers I got a GPS system...and right now I feel stupid as hell! To top it off, I got a call today from a place near this person I applied for saying they were able to hire me on..Wow. I did more than what I should have and in return what did I get. ..hurt.

4 comments:

arlandlady said...

I am 64 and have found that the things I thought I wanted or should have been given in life were not always the things I should have. Of course, it can be devastating especially if the "thing" is a person that we love that disappoints or hurts us. Many years ago I loved and lost someone I cared deeply for. At the time I asked God "why?" It wasn't until several years later that the answer came. It was because God had someone else for me. The key was to trust Him. If I had been given my first choice, I have no doubt that the end result would have been divorce. Trust God and pray for a healing of the heart--He will hear you and come to you in your hour of need.

Jennifer Hunter said...

Amen!!! I have thanked God that he let me see things about the situation. Thank you God!!

arlandlady said...

Hi Jen:

I'm so glad. You are a very special person. God has someone in mind for you that will appreciate the beautiful, unique person you are. When that person comes into your life that God has for you, you will remember this day and will thank God again that you didn't get what you wanted, but waited for what you needed.

Jennifer Hunter said...

I take like this...I prayed that God would let me see the truth and he was showing me all along and I didnt see it. All the things that he said and done he will have to ask me to forgive him. Until he does all will fall for him.