Saturday, June 27, 2009

Where do I go from here....

Been awhile since I wrote in my blog...where do I begin. Everything has been falling into place as God wants it to and I can't complain. Even though I have had the occasional drama it's been good. Over the past couple of weeks, I have thought about a lot of things and prayed about a lot of things also. I have slipped away from my spiritual maintanence and boy! am I paying for it!! At night I use to sit and read my Bible or a Christian book but instead I have been tangled up in the drama of people. I have realized that some people you just can't change and it's not worth losing sleep over. I was looking at my Bible in Sunday school today and I turned on 2 Thessalonians 1:6 God is just: He will pay back trouble to those who trouble you 7 and give relief to you who are troubled, and to us as well. As you and I know, God's words are as good as gold- the Bible is his words. Lately, I have let people tear at me with comments and the stirring up of trouble. Is it worth me causing myself to slip back into my old self? (some of you know my old self- not pretty!!) No, not at all. I've come too far! There will always be those who will redicule me and crucify me for what I believe in, my relationships, who I am and so forth due to jealousy and drama. My focus needs to be on God from now on. Like I said I have come to far to slip. I need to make more time to have talks with God. My new motto is "Think Less; Pray more!" People will try to take your focus off God so it's important that you stay focused and not worry about what others say or do. As Edwin says "Don't sweat the small stuff: God will take care of it!"

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

Let it go!!!

I have posted this before and I think its a great reminder. Something we should keep in mind everyday. Enjoy!

If you are holding on to something that doesn't belong to you and was never intended for your life, then you need to......
If you are holding on to past hurts and pains ......
If someone can't treat you right, love you back, and see your worth .....
If someone has angered you
If you are holding on to some thoughts of evil and revenge......
If you are involved in a wrong relationship or addiction......
If you are holding on to a job that no longer meets your needs or talents
If you have a bad attitude .......
If you keep judging others to make yourself feel better......
If you are struggling with the healing of a broken relationship.......
If you keep trying to help someone who won't even try to help themselves......
If you're feeling depressed and stressed
If there is a particular situation that you are so used to handling yourself and God is saying "take your hands off of it," then you need to......
Get Right or Get Left. Think about it, and then
The battle is the Lord's not yours! Pray and let it go....

Eval and Treat as Indicated per God's Orders

For those of you in the medical field you have seen this type of order...Eval and Tx per MD orders. Spiritual maintenance sometimes requires us to step back..look...evaluate..and treat or fix the situation with the help of God. If we don't keep our spiritual maintenance up like we keep maintenance up on anything else it falls apart. I have fallen short of doing this which is my own fault. I finished a book entitled Traveling Light by Max Lucado. I must say it taught me alot! I highly recommend!!! It took Psalm 23 and broke it down with a meaning for each verse teaching us the burdens we were not intended to carry. So many burdens we carry like bags. The burden of worry, the burden of guilt, burden of the grave (Exodus 33:14), the burden of fear (Luke 22:42), the burden of envy (Proverbs 6:34)(Proverbs 14:30) to name a few. After reading it I realized I carry so many burdens and for what reason..only for the devil to drag me down. I shouldn't worry about who is saying what or who is doing what. God has my back no matter what. It doesn't matter who is jealous of me or who is working against me. Those people poison themselves in their actions and words. I too have been guilty of this at times. I don't want that baggage on me whether I carry it or give it to someone else to carry. Anyone who has troubles should pray (James 5:13). God has so many things in store for all His children, there is no need to take on a burden that you were never intended to bear. Also, never think you can do it alone; God is always with you waiting for you to ask for help and He is always happy to help His child. Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest (Matthew 11:28) And I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever (Psalm 23:6). Give up the burdens...let go..let God! When the signs and symptoms of burdens come...Evaluate...and treat as indicated per God's orders. Remember God is only a prayer away.

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Still a work in progress

This is the class I have been in for a few weeks at church. I have learned a lot about ministry and learned a lot about myself also. Last week and this week we went over our spiritual gifts. My strongest gift is discernment among a few. Every week is a new learning experience as well as a spiritual experience. The more I learn and walk with God the more I feel better and understand what God's will is for me. Whatever your will Lord..I shall follow.

Saturday, June 6, 2009

Back to being a social butterfly

After years of not being involved in any community outings or clubs, I have joined the Red Hat Society again. I was lucky to find a chapter that had an opening. I was in it for a while years ago and loved it. We went out to different restaurants and did fun stuff. I got to meet new people and become friend with some gals! Of course, me being under 50 , I will be dressed in pink and lavender. One day I hope to start my own chapter. This is going to be so much fun!!!!

So proud!!

My son graduated from elementary June 2nd. Today he got the rest of his awards in the mail. They consisted of Honor Roll, A.C.E, President's Award, Computer Award, Duke University to name a few. I am so proud of him. I was talking to a friend of mine about Zach and she said I have done a good job of raising him. I think so myself and I have God to thank for that! Being a single mom is tough but its a rewarding job. I love my son and I want the best for him! The summer is going to filled with so much stuff to do along with the mini road trips we have planned. He will taking some distance learning courses from Duke. Busy he will be. I just can't believe my baby is growing up. High School is around the corner...then college. He is growing up to be a good Christian man with good values. Thank you Jesus! I am very proud of him and look forward to seeing him succeed!

Monday, June 1, 2009

Someday.....I will hold you in my arms

I knew you before I formed you in your mother’s womb. Jeremiah 1:5

My dear little one,
June 19, 2009 will be a year since I lost you. My heart still grieves. I remember the day I took the pregnancy test and saw I was pregnant. I was scared..excited...all the above other than being selfish like your father- I was having a baby! My first appt was on June 19, 2008, I was alone. I looked at you on the ultrasound and could see the buds where your arms and your legs were developing and I could see the little black dots where your eyes were going to be but there was no heartbeat. My heart broke into a million pieces. You had passed in early development. I was all alone to go through losing you. My heart ached, I wanted to feel something else besides hurt. You were my baby!I have forgiven your father for all the mean things he said and how he wanted me to abort you or give you up. I have forgiven him for everything but I know he will have to ask for forgiveness himself. You were not going to be kept a secret like I was from everyone. You were mine, my baby. You were due around January 19th of this year. You would be in my arms if you were here. I know someday I will get to see you and hold you. I have asked God why would He take you from me. I still have no answer..Someday I will know why and I know things happen for a reason- God makes no mistakes. When I tried to talk to your father he brushed me off. I asked him how did he cope with it and he replied I try not to think about it. I cannot help to think about you! It has gotten better but I still wonder what you would have looked like and what you would have been- a boy or girl. The help of others and the church has gotten me through a lot. Your father may not have wanted you but I did! Not a day goes by that I don't think about you. This year I am going to plant a yellow rose in your memory. Your father gave me an angel charm and told me it was his version of the rose. Even though your father was selfish and mean I wear it in memory of you. I want you to know I love you and I can't wait to see you someday. I know you are in the safest place anyone can be and you are in better hands. I love you my lil angel!!!!