Friday, January 30, 2009

This and that.....

Well its Friday! YAY!!! This is going to be huge weekend for me. Tomorrow I am going out of town to visit a family friend. She is sooooo awesome!!! Wish I could have Louise closer to me. Sunday, is my Baptism- soooo excited! Its at Pleasant Dale Baptist church, Randall, not Bethany's church. Be there at 10:30 not 11:00..lol. All I can say is WOW! So much change is going to happen for the better. Amen! I trust in You, God... so let's rock!
I got off work early today and went to the store to get gas- when paying for my gas, the guy looks at me and says "I like your nose ring. Not to be preverted but you are very sexy." I was like oh wow thank you. He preceded to tell me that he likes the way I present myself, I have confidence in myself and it shows. He also says my personality as well as my looks make me attractive. He asked me why I got my nose pierced and here is the reason...My nose piercing is a symbol of me being a strong woman. I have grown so much with Lord in my heart and it shows. I am very proud of myself and I refuse to let anyone take that away from me. With God, there is only one way for me now and that's up!
A friend called me and told me to meet her at Grinders so I hurried home and got ready. As I was heading out the door I was applying makeup. I get to my car and sprayed myself with perfume....well.....I was putting the perfume in my purse and missed it and it landed on the cement driveway...a whole bottle of Chanel #5- GONE! I so love that perfume! Guess it will be Bath and Body for awhile.

What to do...

Well after filling out apps in the greenville and surrounding areas I have had about 9 offers for Nursing/MDS related jobs. WOW!!! Some are pretty good offers. 3 have even offered relocation fees and of course a pay raise. At this point, I dont know what to do. I was only trying to get a job there for one reason but that reason had other plans....
So many doors are opening up for me and I am very grateful and thank God that I have these opportunities. God, whatever your will is for me- show me and I shall follow.....

Thursday, January 29, 2009

One door closes....another one opens....

Sunday will mark a new chapter in my life. I will be Baptized at 10:30 am. I have been going to this church for a while now and I love it! Everyone there is a blessing in my life especially the Pastor. I have been going to Bible study every Wednesday and attending Sunday school and services. All I can say is thank you God. With God I would not be the woman I am right now.
I have walked a narrow line and with God my eyes have become open and the road has widened to new opportunities and new beginnings. I would love for everyone to be there to celebrate this beautiful and memorable occasion.

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

Pride and Confidence

Tonight in Bible study we talked about Pride and Confidence. What is the difference. Well, Pride is something that glorifies you and Confidence glorifies God. We all have been filled with Pride at one time or another and to be honest it sometimes consumes us. We are too prideful to love someone because of being hurt in the past or in some cases we refuse to love someone because of various reasons (distance, family, work etc). We hold grudges against people and that can consume us and make us lose ground with God. I had something for almost a year now that I was holding against someone that said something terrible to me. I asked God to forgive me as I forgive that person for what they said. I refuse to let Pride take over me. I would rather be filled with Confidence and glorify God than to let the Devil break me down. If the person that said that terrible thing to me is reading this..I forgive you. All I can say is you let your Pride take over and let something that could have been good go. I wish things could have been different. So much I wanted to say and do but like you I let my pride consume me. I let go and let God....you see in the final analysis it's not between me and you..it's between you and God. I continue to pray for you and I still care....no matter what.

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me - Philippians 4:13

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

YAY!!!!! How ya like me now!

Well I am very happy. I have lost more weight. I am not afraid to say but I weight 154! That's a lot coming from 184. I have been doing my nightly ritual of "belly dancing" 2x a night and cutting back on what I eat....no M & M's in 3 weeks. I feel so awesome! I am a working to be a healthy weight and I am doing very good. I have fast against fast food since the first of the year..poor McDonald's is losing money. hahahaha.
I promise I will have pics up soon..as soon as I figure out how to put them on here. Tootles!

Be careful of your words...

YOUR TONGUE CAN BE YOUR WORST ENEMY!Your words, your dreams, and your thoughts have power to create conditions in your life.What you speak about, you can bring about.If you keep saying you can't stand your job, you might lose your job.If you keep saying you can't stand your body, your body can become sick.If you keep saying you can't stand your car, your car could be stolen or just stop operating.If you keep saying you're broke, guess what? You'll always be broke.If you keep saying you can't t rust a man or trust a woman, you will always find someone in your life to hurt and betray you.If you keep saying you can't find a job, you will remain unemployed.If you keep saying you can't find someone to love you or believe in you, youre very thought will attract more experiences to confirm your beliefs.If you keep talking about a divorce or breakup in a relationship, then you might end up with it.Turn your thoughts and conversations around to be more positive and power packed with faith, hope, love and action.Don't be afraid to believe that you can have what you want and deserve.Watch your Thoughts, they become words.Watch your Words, they become actions.Watch your Actions, they become habits.Watch your Habits, they become character. Watch your Character, for it becomes yourDestiny.The minute you settle for less than you deserve, you get even less than you settle for.Thought I would share this with you.In the search for Me, I discovered Truth.In the search for Truth, I discovered Love.In the search for Love, I discovered GOD.And in God, I have found Everything.Be Blessed. Watch how your circumstances and situations begin to change when you change the way you speak.Life is like melted butter . . .once things cool down, it can be reshaped..

Monday, January 26, 2009

Let go and let God

Let It Go!!

If you are holding on to something that doesn't belong to you and was never intended for your life, then you need to......

LET IT GO!!!

If you are holding on to past hurts and pains ......

LET IT GO!!!

If someone can't treat you right, love you back, and see your worth .....

LET IT GO!!!

If someone has angered you

LET IT GO!!!

If you are holding on to some thoughts of evil and revenge......

LET IT GO!!!

If you are involved in a wrong relationship or addiction......

LET IT GO!!!

If you are holding on to a job that no longer meets your needs or talents

LET IT GO!!!

If you have a bad attitude .......

LET IT GO!!!

If you keep judging others to make yourself feel better......

LET IT GO!!!

If you are struggling with the healing of a broken relationship.......

LET IT GO!!!

If you keep trying to help someone who won't even try to help themselves......

LET IT GO!!!

If you're feeling depressed and stressed

LET IT GO!!!

If there is a particular situation that you are so used to handling yourself and God is saying "take your hands off of it," then you need to......

LET IT GO!!!

Let the past be the past. Forget the former things.

LET IT GO!!!

Get Right or Get Left. Think about it, and then

LET IT GO!!!

"The Battle is the Lord's!"

Ask and you shall receive....

My friend, Lynn and I had this discussion last night. (our calls always end up being 5 or more hrs long). How many people know how to pray? I learned from a recent talk with my pastor that the way we pray can have an effect on what happens. When it comes to prayer we can become selfish, asking God to furnish what we want. We disregard what God wants for us. That is the important part of praying. We should always pray for God to give us what he feels we need not what we want. I look back on all the praying I have done and see that it was all about what I wanted. Needless to say I got what I wanted...but it didn't work because it wasnt what was intended for me. It is very true when they say be careful what you ask for. Ask and you shall receive, we all need to be careful on what we ask for and always pray that God will give what he wants us to have.

And all things, whatsoever ye shall ask in prayer, believing, ye shall receive- Matthew 21:22

Saturday, January 24, 2009

Cheap! Thank you God!

My friend Lynn called and told me the new gas station (Murphy's gas) on #9 was selling gas for 97 cents for their grand opening, so heck yeah I went to check it out. OMG!!! The line was so long you could not even get onto the bypass. I came back home and waited and went back...filled my car up for almost nothing and they gave everyone a free case of water. How nice.... If only I could store gas...hmmm....I told some other people and they have gone to fill up. That helped a lot of people who are short on cash and needed gas. God is good- All the time!
To add...I stopped by another store and got a hotdog, when I came out I noticed I had parked my car on a $100 bill...YAY!!! Thank you Jesus! See God will give back when he sees you do good and knows that your heart is filled with Him. You just can't do something and expect to get something in return..it takes more than that baby!
Well Monster jam was last night and I had 3 tickets to go. I was going to surprise someone but they decided they didnt want me. So.....I packed myself a overnight bag and went to Greenville. I checked myself in the Westin Poinsette and oh my at $279 a night it was worth it! I ended up going to the Monster Jam by myself. I stayed 2 hrs and was ready to get out- SO LOUD!!!! I got back to the hotel and was going to bed but got up, got dressed and went walking around town. I thought about a lot of stuff and of course ended the night crying myself to sleep. I had breakfast and checked out early. I am going to miss what they call their "heavenly beds". Wow....thats all I can say. It would have been nice to have shared it with someone...

Friday, January 23, 2009

Baptism

I am so excited about my Baptism on Feb 1st. I wish everyone could be there! No this isn't a "worship obsession" like someone called it. It is having a closer relationship to God. I feel good about my decision to be Baptized. The more the relationship becomes stronger the more I feel good. My faith is becoming stronger each day. Maybe this is why my life is falling into place. I choose to follow the path God wants me to follow. Again, I say, maybe this is why my life is the way it is and yours is the way yours is..So don't call it an obsession! Some people need to re- eval their life.
I do have a new special friend that requested to be there. He is a work in progress with God and wanted to be there for me. Who knows this person could be a prayer answered.

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

I always want what I can't have...

The title says it all. I want something I can't have. I look for something and when I think I have found it, it slips through my fingers. Its hard to accept when you love someone and you are lead to believe they want what you want but they don't. They find someone else. Why do people give up a chance of a lifetime for something that looks good at the moment? For Valentine's day I got this someone the seat cover to the backseat, I was going to surprise this person with tickets to Monster Jam for this weekend, and to go along with the seat covers I got a GPS system...and right now I feel stupid as hell! To top it off, I got a call today from a place near this person I applied for saying they were able to hire me on..Wow. I did more than what I should have and in return what did I get. ..hurt.